Won't post another one for a bit, sorry guys.

Too much going on, I'll post another one later.

I just wanted to start off by talking about Shadowraver. He's on Buzznet and he really is an amazing guy. He's always there to read my journals or w/e and he's just a generally nice guy. No faking or w/e. He actually cares about people and gets to to know a person before judging them on what they look like, etc. If anoyone deserves to be Buzzed 3705765380210974091 times then it's him.

Now, my iPod is being a dick. It won't let me load fricken videos and that's all I want it to do......it's not even mine which makes it worse. I said I'd set it all up for someone and now it's all fucked up and w/e. So yeah. I know it can play videos because it's one of the newer models. I'll just try again later on or w/e.

Halloween soon. Anyone else excited? I'm looking forward to ALOT of things, like theme parks and parties and costumes and sweets. I am such a little kid when it comes to Halloween or Christmas or my birthday but w/e. I love all of it. Even Easter, ya know? I think I have them mental age of a ten year old, maybe even younger. This is Halloween, Halloween, Halloween. Everybody scream, everybody scream; in our town of Halloween.

I love The Nightmare Before Christmas.

mollywho

I don't know why I'm writing this but having six journals looks kind of lame I guess. I want a few more so yeah, more journals, more journals. I do actually have a point to this though, it's not going to be me talking shit ALL the time. I write as if I'm talking to someone but the thing is, no-one even reads these. If someone read them then maybe I'd be more inspired or something. I don't know. I'm going to write them but maybe people would be more inclined to read them if the title was like "SEX" or w/e.

I'm going to meet Noel one day. Noel Fielding that is. I watch the Amused Moose gig every day on YouTube. I love him. He's actually a comedy genius. I'm going to meet him somehow, maybe go to Camden every day or w/e. I go to Camden loads though anyway so w/e.

I use w/e way too much. When I can;t be bothered to say something else - I say w/e. I don't think I've actually every typed out WHATEVER. It's just w/e. I love the way it looks actually. Is that wrong? To love a typing abbreviation? Ah well, I love w/e just almost as much as I love Noel Fielding and WiL.

Now WiL, I have met. WiL and Nick and Jake.D and Jake.W and Angel. ^_^ That was my happy face.

I met them and first of all, Jake signed my booklet, then WiL signed it. I hugged WiL too - I was all overwhelmed so in the most pathetic voice ever I say, "C...Can...Can I have a hug?"

So WiL, being one of the nicest people on Earth - no joke - goes, "Yeah sure. Of course you can." Then he smiles. This really adorable, cute smile. So I go in to hug him and while we're hugging Highley takes the cutest photo of us. When we're actually hugging (the picture doesn't show how close we got in the end) he whispers to me, "Thanks for coming out here." Being the total dick I am, I had no idea what he said to me until on the train home but w/e. It finally hit me on the tube and I just started shouting "WiL said thanks for coming out here! I know what he said!" People were looking at me like I was crazy but w/e. I didn't care about them. Highley got all embarrassed because of me shouting but w/e.

So then I take my little booklet, after I hugged WiL, and went to see Nick, Angel and Jake Wambold. I get my booklet signed by all three of them and then I say to them, "Thanks for doing this, I've been wanting to meet you for ages."

Nick says, in this amazingly cheesy accent, "No, thank you." It's silent for a second before Jake and Angel start laughing at him and taking the piss. Nick goes all red and embarrassed and it was just the cutest thing ever.

I have no idea why I just wrote all that out but w/e.

mollywho

It wouldn't even matter anyway seeing as M went out with some of our friends and Terry had to go to work. I got to stay at home, despite being invited by M to go out with the girls. I've got work to do - as you know - and there's ALOT of it. Really, no joke. So now I'm home alone, Vince is inside because of her operation but that doesn't count, and even though I know I have to get something done today - I can't help but check my Buzznet or w/e. And Vince needs some company - she's actually sitting on my lap now as I type and playing with the keys. I just deleted a whole load of stuff which she typed. All rubbish like: jhiudf89u32 54'c#z]cszfi nsjdpjaspjJPhfdoi; or w/e. I think the painkillers have been restricting the oxygen to her tiny little brain or something. That cat isn't all there. I like being home alone, then sometimes I don't.

Sometimes I enjoy not having to make too much noise beacsue Terry's concentrating on his paitings or w/e, and then sometimes it's nice to be able to do w/e I want without M telling me if it's unhealthy or a waste of time. I love that woman dearly but sometimes she can make you feel so small. Then, I think that the apartment wouldn't be the same without them and the arguments or the laughter or the tears - minus Terry; he doesn't cry. And I'm right. The apartment wouldn't be the same. Even I'd be different. I'd be living in mess because M always cleans up the empty take-out boxes I've left and I certainly wouldn't have painting after painting to cover the walls because Terry is an amazing artist. The house - apartment really but it feels like a house because we have a little garden on our balcony and "house" sounds better - is my home away from home. I know that my real home is pretty far away but I never really get homesick because this place is like my real home too. I've got a mother figure in M and Terry is like an older brother; something that I never had as a child.

mollywho

Secondly, Vince just jumped onto my shoulders from the table and clawed away at my neck. It was not a nice experience. Seriously, her claws are like, ..................................this.................................. long. We really need to get those cut because now it looks like a blind vampire has been trying to suck blood from my neck. Not a good look.

On a lighter note, the garden looks really pretty. It's all green and the sun is shining down through all these leaves. Looks kinda like a poem. The weather has been really weird today. To start of it was freezing and now it's not hot - but kind of sunny and nice enough.

So this has been another journal, just not a very long one.

mollywho 

To start, let me tell you about how fucking cold I am right now. Michaela told me that the heating was on but seriously, I don't see how. I'm actually freeeezing. Super, super cold. I've got my leg warmers on, Terry's Vans hoodie and my actualy clothess and I'm still amazingly cold. I don't get how the heating can be on but w/e. I'm not going to get into an argument about it with M. She can be freaking scary when she wants to be. No joke.

Yesterday I went to this Cafe with my friends. They all came, even though Cat was about two hours late. That girl is always late. It was ridiculously over-priced but I was hungry so w/e. I got myself one of those fruit booster things which are really tasty and pretty much fat-free as it's just water and fruit juice blended with ice. Then I also had a bowl of green olives in a garlic and herb marinade all to myself. The marinade was probably a bad move because of the oil in it but w/e. I'm not going to get all weird over some fucking olives. Then I had a Cafe Mocha afterwards. A grande Cafe Mocha but w/e. I was hungry, cold and couldn't care less. Though saying that I was probably only cold from the fruit booster so I guess I did something to make Karma hate me. W/e.

After that we took some photos and stuff. I was wearing grey tights with my black leg warmers, pink zebra flats, a black military Adeline dress and a pink leopard vest top underneath. The dress was a BIG mistake. You cannot take a good photo on a swing when you have to worry about showing your underwear. It was amazingly short, much shorter than I remember but w/e. I can wear it to conventions, but not for PS. No way. So I had my studded belt over it which just made it look even shorter. The skirt was pleated and I love it but no way am I wearing it out during the day again. Not a chance.

mollywho

I mean, if you're lucky enough to be one of the BuzzMakers then I'm sure everyone reads and comments - fair enough. I'm not attacking them or anything; most of the BuzzMakers such as Audrey or Jeffree are actually some of my inspirations so I can assure you that I'm not trying to start anything. What I mean is that, who reads the journals of those with lower Buzznet status?

It was just one of those things I was thinking about. Nothing of any real importance. Just something to talk about I guess. I mean, I know I never will be a BuzzMaker or anything nearly as popular as J* or Audrey but it would be amazing. I'm fairly young and impressionable, go figure. I'd love to have that sort of life - even just for a day. Imagine being adored by hundreds, imagine having your MySpace viewed about 74896586438569327507539088463 times a day. I know it seems stupid and materialistic but seriously, who can honestly say that they wouldn't want to even have a sample of that life for just a day, or even just ten minutes?

I'd love to know more about what happens in their lives, I really would. I want to know if it's all glamour and glitz: if it's all touring and signing: if it's all clubbing and conventions. I know that there's more to it than that. Way more. I know personal battles and questioning yourself and status is all part of it. Don't think that I'm some niave little kid because I'm not. I just want to know.

So if anyone has actually read this, and if anyone actually knows - comment this or message me or post a note or something because I want to know.

mollywho

I'm going out to lunch in a bit - so I should probably go get ready. I've got to do my hair which actually takes forever, then I have to re-doall my make up which will take forever also. I'm going out at one and I've only got like, two hours before I have to be there. I'm going to this little cafe with three of my friends. I think. I'm probably going to get some olives and a fruit booster drink thing. It's got hardly any calories ; I'm not trying to loose weight though. I just don't want to put anything major on before Christmas. I'm going to get fat enough as it is over the holidays without any extra baggage.

Work is a bitch. I've got so much to do in such little time and I honestly can't be bothered to do any of it. I've got an interview to hand in within days and then loads of stuff to add to my folders and P.F's etc. It's going to take forever but I'm such a procrastinator. Like, I'd rather spend all my time watching paint dry than write up a reference or an evaluation. There's also loads I have to do on the computer and I can't be fucked.

mollywho

P.S. My photo form uploading thing isn't working. Everytime I click "save" it says that the photos are uploading but then it goes back to the form and says that "NOTHING WAS POSTED." Help, anyone? Also, I was wondering if anyone felt like commenting the pictures  I've already got up. Comments would be returned and much loved.

I live in the most boring part of the world and there's nothing to do except go down to the graveyard and watch a load of minors get pissed. I have two cats; Ozzy (cornish rex) and Vince. She's a bit of a mix. I'll try and get some videos of them up.

I might get some videos of me up but w/e. I'm not too exciting so maybe not.

I've gone to appox. 578959326563421803890504398246 gigs and stuff, met a few bands and whatnot but I've yet to meet Green Day. That's my life ambition but w/e. Probably won't happen. I met Aiden recently and that was amazing. I don't care that they aren't all that famous or w/e. I've loved them since the start and it was rad as fuck to meet them.

mollywho